Welcome…
My beautiful life partner, Ellen Kubay Adkins, transitioned on October 6, 2025. I am honored to have shared roughly 60 years in her presence. She will be deeply missed by me and all those who had the opportunity to know her, to work with her, and to love her. What a ride. Take a look.
Ellen Kubay Adkins Celebration of Life
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Some time ago I wrote this poem for Ellen. It’s called “That Smile.”
The picture above captures it so well.
That Smile
That smile.
Yes, that one;
lights up my world,
brings me joy,
brings me happiness.
When you wear it,
nothing is more beautiful,
nothing is more radiant.
My world stops for a moment…
and all is well.
― Ven Adkins
Missing Her
As I go through my grieving process, I can’t help but to find solace in our time together. I do this best by looking back on our lives through imagery and music. Today, after 8 and half months, I was missing her deeply and needed something more so I created another slideshow. It came out like this.
“the time of my life”
“Fine art is that in which the hand, the head, and the heart of man go together.
― John Muir
“Where the spirit does not work with the hand, there is no art.”
― Leonardo da Vinci
“The world’s big and I want to have a good look at it before it gets dark.”
― John Ruskin
Brugh Joy – Heart Centering Meditation (Transcript)
We want to begin the process of birthing ourselves into the now moment.
We can do that by using a certain part of our psyche that can separate itself from the previous moments.
And, as we do, we want to birth ourselves into nowness.
Those of you that are working with Eckhart Tolle, this should be familiar work to you. For those of you that know about the animus sword, this is an amazing function; can separate us and bring us fully into the present now.
Then we find our intention. Our intention is to open to the mystery of the heart center.
As I set that intention, I want to begin to realize that I am a unique reflection of a divine mystery. And when I put my hand on my body, and particularly on my heart center, as I touch my heart center, I want to touch it with reverence…
and awe. The wonderment of being incarnated as a unique reflection of the divine mystery. I happen to feel all of manifestation is a divine mystery. And I’m a unique reflection, as you are.
As I bring my other hand up to my heart center, I want to begin to open to the mystery of the heart center. And, as I do, I want to feel after all of the uh moments that I have opened to transcendental love, and each of you, in your own way, whether it is that you’re being embraced and infused by a divine presence that infuses you, embues you, feeling yourself transformed.
You want to feel the shift in consciousness, not think it. And as we open to the embrace of the divine mystery of the heart center, whether it is a presence enfolding, embuing you, that is divine love to… [inaudible]… deity meditation, which is, “I am divine love manifesting.”
Either way, we begin.
Quieting yourself, opening to the four attributes of the heart center.
First, divine love; unconditioned and unconditional. Experience it to whatever degree, atomically, for the heart center is the mystery of all centers.
It unites all things in the mystery. It causes us to fall in love with life itself.
And it brings us to profound clarity, the suchness of things as it is called.
And in wonderment now, open to the healing presence as if a great healing presence enfolds and imbues to whatever degree. Make the feeling presence within your whole being.
This is the energy that restores. It heals; makes whole and it aligns us into our original intention. The mystery of the healing presence of the heart center.
We open in wonderment to innate harmony. This is infinite bliss. Feel it. It is that which makes the heart center lighter than the feather.
It is the peace beyond all understanding. It is the calm in the midst of chaos.
It is the center of a spinning wheel.
And in wonderment, we open to the fourth attribute, supernal compassion,
the ability to know another directly, offering resources, the body-ful wisdoms, the mindful information and Akashics and the mystery of Holos, of missions. Offered in reverence.
These four then, uniting into a single experience of the heart center.
Feel yourself spherically emanating; the deity in service.
It only takes but a minute or so to touch the experience.
It can’t go anywhere.
And for those of you that are going to be completing tonight, I want to thank you for being with us. Thank you for your input. It’s been extremely helpful in our work of opening to the internet as a wonderful way to communicate. I’m excited. I hope you are. I hope we can continue to improve and look forward to connecting with you in the future.
Namaste.